Elena Gilbert {The Vampire Diaries AU}

I think that's indeed where my twin and I are right now.

We're trying to rebuild our lives and start over. After all, in a relatively short time, we lost our parents, a good friend had her life ripped apart, and we were dumped by our boyfriends. They then disappeared.

After all of this, we just had to get away. I know that may not sound like the bravest thing to do to some people, but they haven't seen everything we have. We had to get away from Mystic Falls and away from Virginia. It was too painful for us there.

So we ran. We ran as far away as we could get and now we're trying like hell to build lives for ourselves that are completely different from what we knew. We miss our Velociraptor Sisterhood, but thankfully, they understood why we had to do this.

I just wish I knew if it was ever going to do either one of us any good.



Muse: Elena Gilbert
Fandom: Vampire Diaries (AU)
Words: 165
Disclaimer: The Vampire Diaries is not my concept, but AU Elena is.

I said "no" a lot during that conversation.

I was sitting on my bed, watching Damon. Even watching him move that night was causing me to hurt in ways I didn't know I could hurt. I had known when he and Stefan arrived at the house and separated Katherine and I that something was wrong. I wasn't used to seeing my devil may care boyfriend looking so tense and serious. It scared me.

"When will you be back?" I hated how soft my voice sounded, but I was never one for yelling that much. I usually let Katherine yell at people. She was good at it.

"We won't," he finally said, looking at me. "Elena, it's too dangerous for you two if Stefan and I stay."

"That's not true," I protested. I didn't believe it was true. After all, if it hadn't been for Damon and his brother, my twin and I would have died in the same crash that claimed the lives of our parents.

His eyes were full of sorrow and I don't think I had ever seen him look like that. He came and knelt in front of me, taking my hands in his. "Babe, Pearl and her people never would have started coming after you and Katherine if we had never come back here."

"If you had never come back here, Kath and I would have died." I looked at him. "Unless you think that everything would have been better for you guys if we hadn't survived that."

Damon jumped up in one fluid motion, throwing himself away from me. "Don't. Don't even say something like that, Elena. It would not have been better if you had died. I couldn't have dealt with something like that."

"Then why?" I knew my voice was breaking, but I didn't care. "Why do you guys have to leave? Katherine and I have never been as happy as we've been since we met you! Why are you going to let a little bit of danger take all of that away from us?"

"It's not just a little bit of danger, Elena! If it wasn't for me and Stefan, Pearl never would have known about you guys. The Lockwoods never would have looked your way. All of the bad things that have happened in the last few months have been because of me or Stefan." He shook his head. "So we're going to leave and never look back --"

"No."

"-- and you and Katherine can go back to having normal, quiet lives."

"No. That's not what we want."

"In time, you'll forget all about us."

I just stared at him, not quite believing what he was saying. "You think I'll forget all about you, just like that? Damon, I love you and I thought you loved me. You said that you did. You said that I made you happy. Or didn't you mean it?"

"Elena," he said quietly, as if I was hurting him. "I did mean it. I do. But there is something more important to me than my own happiness."

"Oh yeah? And what's that?" I couldn't help the anger that was in my voice. He was tearing out my heart and I knew in the room next to mine that his brother was doing the same thing to my twin. "Your ability to be free to hunt or screw any girl that you want?"

"You know that's not true."

"Then why, Damon? After everything that we've been through, why are you doing this to us?"

"Because your safety and knowing that you're alive is more important to me than that."

"Damon, please. Don't do this. We can deal with all of these things that are out there together."

I watched him shake his head and I knew that nothing I said was going to make a difference. He and Stefan had made up their minds before they even came into the house.

I was fighting tears, but one slid down my face anyway. "When?" I could barely hear my voice, but I knew it was clearly heard by Damon. You had to love those vampire senses sometimes.

"Tonight."

That single word was as loud as an explosion to my ears. I felt a pain in my chest, almost like I couldn't breathe.

"Tonight?" I made myself look up and see his face. "So soon?"

He didn't reach for my hand. I think if he had, I would have broken down completely. "It has to be, Elena," he said quietly. "If I don't leave tonight, I might let you talk me into staying and I would never forgive myself if something happened to you."

"No." I shook my head, not wanting to accept this. "No."

"It's better this way. I love you, Elena, and I will always love you." He reached out to brush my hair back from my face. "I would never forgive myself if something happened to you because you love me. I won't do it."

"No, Damon. No."

I felt him lean in and I felt his lips brush mine. By the time I reached up to pull him closer, the kiss was over and he was gone.

I was left staring at the empty bedroom as tears started sliding down my face.

"No."


Muse: Elena Gilbert
Fandom: The Vampire Diaries (AU)
Words: 879